This morning was an exciting morning! Shiloh is back on a nasty antibiotic for an ear infection and mommy forgot to get it flavored at Walgreens. Today, I put a little bit of koolaid powder in this morning's dose and she took it with out any complaints! Woo Hoo for not only fixing a mommy mistake, but finding a more economical way to flavor the meds! Then, as we were pulling out of the driveway I saw this magnificent rainbow! I finally got Shiloh to see it and she called it "pretty." When I got to the end of the road, you could see both ends of the rainbow... I think that was a first for me. I was in awe.
....will it go away? Today is just one of those days when everything hits me all at once: The stress of our situation and uncertainty of what is to come, the worries of money and how we will survive, and the feeling disconnected from the world. Day in and day out, I try to look at the bright side and hope and pray for the best. I do research to affirm where we stand and the likliness of a good outcome. I have thrown everything I have into finding ways to make and save money, telling myself it will make a difference. I never stop racking my brain. However, I never seem to shake the feeling of being disconnected from the world. My only social outlet is work, and being that, is limited. I seem to have very little in common with the people who are easily accessible to me outside of my family, and very little time for those with which I can relate. I crave something creative...to paint, photograph, write, but by the end of the night, when I alot my self some time, I am too mentally tired...
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